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Den här är för dig Marion, Det var riktigt kul på APUn idag, barnen är riktigt härliga, personalen är otroligt trevlig. Hela den avdelningen som jag inte är med har fattat tycke för mig och impulsivt bestämt att jag ska gifta mig med den 21åriga tjejen som jobbar på småskola B (Galningar) Victor bättrar sig, inte mycket men vad kan man förvänta sig?
Man blir trött av att vara runt 25 galna 6åringar men jag känner att det är något som jag kan leva med, jag blir lycklig när jag ser dom bli glada över så små saker.

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I'm like a ghost
I'll be living in a dirt room
Waiting for the day to be closer
To the window when you're home
I'll be standing by your back door
Reaching for the knife in my coat
I'm going to put it to your throat
Sweaty piggy, you're a bad man
What a fucking sad way to go
Your mother raised you as a joke
I should have wiped away a burden
Use the curtain in the kitchen to choke
You
You think you own me
You should have known me
You took the future and the food off my family's plate
You think you'll use me
I'm stronger than you
You take my money, but it's useless
When you see what I do to you
Look what I do to you

Oh god then you awoke
You started screaming through the duct tape
Don't ever think I'm letting you go
I'm busy digging you a hole
Now you'll be living in a dirt room
Breathing through the straw of your own
Come on, I really think that this is fun for the money
I'll make it comfy for the time wasted making you rich
I want to cover you in ants, bees and honey
Then take a picture for the cover of our album!

You think you own me
You should have known me
You took the future and the food off my family's plate
You think you'll use me
I'm stronger than you
You take my money, but it's useless
When you see what I do to you
Look what I do to you

You think you own me
You should have known me
You took the future and the food off my family's plate
You think you'll use meI'm stronger than you
You take my money, but it's useless
When you see what I do to you
Look what I do to you

And now I see you, oh
'Cause your back's against the wall
And finally you're mine
You're mine

You think you own me
You should have known me
You took the future and the food off my family's plate
You think you'll use me
I'm stronger than you
You take my money, but it's useless
When you see what I do to you!

I really think that this is fun for the money
We'll make you comfy for the time wasted making you rich
I want to cover you in ants, bees and honey
Then take a picture for the cover of our album!

Fuck

I'm useless, I'm not worth being called a "Friend"

I wonder if my headache remains active because I'm stressed.
I might shut the blog down.. Nothing left to write.

Burn

I don't know what to do anymore.. I've lost control.

I will let you down.

Constant headache.. that's.. all I can say.

Fuck.

This is it, I'm pretty much going down, I need to write about 30 Pages in total til' thursday to avoid regoing this year of school.. I'm fucked. I'm so fucking fucked. Whatever.. I'll manage.. I suppose.

.

I’m scared of death and I’m scared of living, I gave up on the past cause it’s unforgiving, I misplaced my trust, I watched my word begin to rust ,I’m a balloon about to bust. I need a place for reliving. Still...

W00000000000t

I'm quite happy, the last few days has been great. :) Peace out.

Life

I'm worried, I'm worried about myself, I'm worried about my friends, I'm.. worried about life and it's killing me, slowly, it feels like someone's constantly pointing a gun against my head.

(Y)

Love is a dense tool that's made for bashing yourself in the head.

When I'm down, down, down. (Heared some lyrics from some random song. o.o)

I'm at Malins' and I'm still trying to study.. I should get started. Bubai

Oh yeah. :O

Rip me into pieces, smack me in the ground, break all my bones, I will still be stronger then you.

Saturday.

Ended up at Malins' place, once again. Kinda got left behind by my father today.. so.. No food, no cash makes Douglas sad. :< Oh well! They're.. going to feed me here so I'm satisfied. :D
Peace out.

Song of the day: Dirt Room - Blue October. It's scary.. but amazing.

Saturdaymorning,

It's, well, "Early" the headache is killing me.. I'm bored to death, I'm currently laying here in my bed and... I'm in need of company, where's all the friends at? Well.. Nisse, the weakling is asleep. I'd kill for a fucking cold beer...Whatever.. I'll survive. Nn people!

Friday, night.

I'm with a great friend of mine, known him for like.. 11 years. :) We're going to play a quite idiotic MMORPG Game, World of Warcraft. <3 Nils and I will conquer the world! MOHAHA!

Through Glass <3

I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh, god it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home sitting all alone inside your head

'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh, god it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home sitting all alone inside your head

How do you feel? That is the question
But I forget.. you don't expect an easy answer
When something like a soul becomes
Initialized and folded up like paper dolls and little notes
You can't expect a bit of hope
So while you're outside looking in
Describing what you see
Remember what you're staring at is me'

Cause I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
When no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head
How much is real? So much to question
An epidemic of the mannequins
Contaminating everything
When thought came from the heart
It never did right from the start
Just listen to the noises(No more sad voices)
Before you tell yourself
It's just a different scene
Remember it's just different from what you've seen

I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
And all I know is that it feels like forever
When no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
And all I know is that it feels like forever
When no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

And it's the stars
The stars
That shine for you
And it's the stars
The stars
That lie to you. Yeah

And it's the stars
The stars
That shine for you
And it's the stars
The stars
That lie to you. Yeah

I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh, god it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

And it's the stars
The stars
That shine for you. Yeah
And it's the stars
The stars
That lie to you. Yeah

And it's the stars
The stars
That shine for you. Yeah-ah

And it's the stars
The stars
That lie to you. Yeah, yeah.
Oh when the stars
Oh when the stars that lie

Warmth

Summer, happy. (y)
The stress is taking over, yesterday it felt like my heart would bounce out of my chest. I should really do these homeworks.. Oh well! Had a great time with Malin, I might not be the most social person but I sure enjoy company. :) Been home for like.. 5 minutes, met Ali from my old school at the way home, was fun. :) I should get going though.. at the wrong home. Damn you mom!

Booooooooooooooooooze

I want... booze, a shitload of booze. that'd make my day a bit happier. Oh well, I'm broke.. and.. I'm not allowed to drink so I might as well.. do something else. I can always sit here. (Y)
Anyway! Tomorrow is going to be a happy day, I'm off to Malins place and it's always nice to meet her. :) PS. The funny little indian guy who sold the booze kinda got caught, pretty fun when you think of it! I'll miss him. R.I.P Indian guy <3. I will always remember you!

Where's the so called summer?

It's cold outside.. I miss the sun, the warm breeze. I was outside for a short time and the warm summer air was gone, well... it's like 01:31 now so that might explain pretty much anything.
It's going to be warm and sunny tomorrow, let's hope that it's true. :)

Oh shit!

Things happens, things no-one can explain. Why? People asks themselves that everyday, so do I. It can be bad things, good things, in my case it's often stuff that I want to forget, as soon as possible. why am I so weak? Why can't I get a grip over my own fucking feelings? I can't even keep my grades up. For once I want to deeply think over my life and just.. straighten it out. I wish that everything just.. stopped, just once.. please.